14 years of Acne, though on and off, really begins to wear on you…
I try to be patient, hopeful, and optimistic – I’ve given up some, nay, most of the yummiest, most-loved foods in my life. No more milk, no cheese, no coffee, no bread, no pasta, no cookies…
It was good for a while! My face goes through phases of ‘really clear’ to ‘somewhat less clear’. I can’t say that the acne of my past has ever come back.
I quit Benzoyl Peroxide because I hoped I was healthy enough to venture out without it. I hoped that by now my body is healthy so my face should be healthy. I decided I no longer have acne, so what’s the point of using a harsh drying chemical on my normal skin?
I decided to try Jojoba Oil because I wanted to have a low-maintenance skin care routine that’s as natural as possible…
But it turns out I might have bought the wrong kind of Jojoba Oil…I should have researched the topic ad nauseam the way I normally do, but I just wanted it to work. I thought buying a cheap Jojoba Oil from Whole Foods would mean that it’s a quality oil.
NEW IN 2017!
It’s only been 12 days on Desert Essence Jojoba Oil, but I already feel like quitting.
This reminds me of the first time I tried Jojoba Oil. It was the same brand, but I was using it wrong. Doesn’t matter, it still destroyed my skin. I think I’m going through some Jojoba-related PTSD or something…
I’m feeling discouraged today. I’ve been disciplined for so long, and I exercise so much will power daily, that I’m just tired of it all…
Last night, as I was washing my face with honey after removing my makeup…I felt these tiny clogged pores under my fingertips, and I suddenly hated them like never before.
They started after I started using Jojoba Oil, and I knew it could be part of the so-called ‘purge’ but I was fed up.
They were unnoticeable to anybody but me, but I noticed them! Feeling the bumps filled me with sadness and anger.
Feeling the bumps filled me with sadness and anger.
What should have been 3 minutes of face washing, turned into a 15-minute skin torture session where I basically poked holes in my forehead and cheeks with a metal blackhead extractor.
I didn’t enjoy watching the solid sebum plugs come out of my pores, and I certainly didn’t enjoy the slight pain. I didn’t enjoy the look of my skin after I was done. It was red and angry. I was filled with regret. I fell off the skin-touching wagon…hard.
Now I was filled with regret. I fell off the skin-touching wagon…hard. I went into the bathroom with a nice enough face and left with a destroyed face – little dots of blood littered my forehead, replacing the sebum plugs.
I applied a honey mask for two hours hoping that the honey would help disinfect the damage done.
It didn’t make me feel any better.
For the first time after starting the 30-day Jojoba experiment, I woke up not wanting to look in the mirror. I was no longer excited about my skin.
But I said I would do this experiment for 30 days, and even though I don’t want to keep using it, I will. I will give this Desert Essence Jojoba a real try before coming to any conclusions. I said a month, so a month it will be.
I’ve been told to just battle through the purge and keep going, but it’s mentally draining – especially if there’s a chance that I got a crappy Jojoba Oil.
I’ve stressed before the importance of reading labels, but I didn’t this time. It turns out 100% Pure just isn’t enough anymore. The really good Jojoba has to be ‘Organic’ and ‘Cold-pressed’ too.
I found myself less prone to smilestoday, because this skin thing has gotten to me. It’s upset me.
I wanted a simple product, but it turns out that there’s no such thing. Even Jojoba Oil requires research, and your local Whole Foods or health food store might just carry the basic, crappy Jojoba instead of the baller Jojoba.
I have to rethink everything.
Below is my forehead today. I took pictures in daylight and indoor light to give you a better idea of how bumpy things have gotten.
So far, I don’t recommend Desert Essence Jojoba Oil. Please don’t buy it even though it’s cheaper than the other Jojoba Oil brands.
Let me finish this experiment, so that you don’t have to go through these ups and downs that I’m experiencing right now, before even thinking of trying Jojoba Oil.
Hopefully there’s a miracle at the end of this…Or an Organic Cold-Pressed Jojoba Oil?
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